There is More

Categories: Blog Apr 13, 2016

I'm getting older. Chronologically. Things that once mattered to me don't seem to matter to me anymore and things that never mattered to me are all I care about now. It is both weird and wonderful. I confess at one time, I mostly thought of me, what I wanted to have, what I wanted to do. Now, I still mostly think of me, but its more about who I want to become and how I want to live.

My thoughts have always been selfish. I was never one that enjoyed sharing things or really helping others. I wanted to keep my stuff mine, and I wanted a lot of stuff. I wanted to lift heavy things, have big muscles, and workout for a living. Seriously, the two biggest issues of my life used to be making sure I fit in all my meals in at exactly the right time and making sure I was able to train. If I was able to do those two things, I was a "great guy." If something interfered with any of those things, I was an irritable, miserable person to know. Thankfully, I am out of that season, for the most part.

Don't get me wrong, I still like eating and training, but I was a nut. Really, I was delusional.
Somehow my identity was wrapped up in what I did. And that is quite sad, because as you just read, I didn't do too much. In my mind, I was the guy who worked out. I was the guy who was strong, who never missed a training session. That's quite the accomplishment to be proud of isn't it? I thank God my wife is so patient. I have no idea how she put up with me for so long.

Like I said, I had an identity problem, among many other problems. I mistook the things I did, wanted or had for who I was. Not only that, I placed value on things that did not matter because my mind was narrow and my thoughts were shallow.

Fortunately, there was a change. I'm not sure exactly when it happened, in fact I am sure that it didn't happen at any one time. The change I am in, the change I have experienced, has been a process of change. Learning how my body was made to move, learning how to roll and crawl, played a large role in this process. Somehow that led to a desire to teach others how they were made. Somewhere along the line I began to not care about working out as much as I began to care about feeling good. Somewhere and somehow I began to want to live life better, and I began to want to make the world a better place. To not get too deep or involved in the details of this story, I will simply say I began to learn who I am; I discovered my identity. And, funny as it sounds, it really all started when I began to learn how to crawl again.

I'm telling you this for a reason. You are not what you do. You are so much more valuable and so much more important than any task, any activity, or any vocation that you find yourself doing. Your identity is not in what you do, but in who you are.

Who are you?

When you discover this, if you haven't already, your lens changes - how you see the world changes, but so does the way you see yourself. You change. Your desires change. Things that mattered may not, things that never mattered may. You may discover you enjoy new things, you may discover you want to do new things. You may discover you are capable of quite anything. You may even discover you have weird desires to make the world a better place.

But that is THE thing. Life is about discovery. From the moment you were born, you set out on a journey of exploration and discovery. Your entire life is meant for you to discover. Every season, every moment is an opportunity to discover more about yourself; who you are, Whose you are, and why you are here.

If you are bored, if you believe you have reached your full potential, if you are restless and you don't know why, if you wrestle with being what you do instead of being who you are, you have a journey to undertake. You have a life to discover.

So ponder this:

Who are you? Who were you meant to become? What have you discovered about yourself? What have you left to be discovered?


There is more.

There is more to life.

There is more to you.

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